having this indescribable feelings these days. many questions seems to surface every now and then. is this the life i really wanted? seriously, i have no idea. i know deep down that i need to sacrifice certain stuffs for certain stuffs. i can never get all. hard or never. and the worst ever thing is that i seems to face a diff someone, who is horrible, these days. its like seriously almost everyday, someone will make me real bitter, angry.. and vulgarities just flow through my mind. badbadbad. sigh. perhaps i should be more understanding? hmm.. and it seems that trusting ppl is still a real hard issue for me to handle. who should/can i trust besides God? who is exactly being real to me? i have no idea. only you, yourself and God know it. its really hard to comprehend. or perhaps i should think things alittle more simple.. i'mtootiredtothinkthatmuch.. that much..

and hey. its better of u to stop wasting ur time to understand me. ure just wasting ur time~